OMGGG, XANGA<333 I haven't been on here in aggessssss. Not that many people will read this but I will point this out to some =).

The last post of mine *was* kinda depressing. I feel way better about life and school these days, though!

This blog post right here is basically a TOTALLY different opinion from the last one I wrote.

High School is awesome, and it's been like that ever since I changed my perspective. It's the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life, but I love my class so much (picture below) and my grades keep going up ^_^


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Back row (left to right): Joelle, Francesca D., Martina, Ruza (Rosa/Rose), Melanie
Front row (left to right): Francesca F., Francesco, Me, Alessandra, Nadine

And: http://img26.picoodle.com/img/img26/4/3/19/f_Classm_507dd1a.jpg (The guy right below me, yeah, no comment.)

Those "idiots" I mentioned in my other blog post are the coolest guys ever. They always make me laugh and they can change my mood really quickly even though they aren't talking directly to me... they are really sarcastic and witty. Most of them are waking up and started studying more because they realize that High School is less of a joke than they thought at the beginning of the school-year.

I study a lot and only the simpler homework is done the day before. I'm starting to get presentations (oral) assigned and they are quite challenging...

I've made new friends and they are brilliant. Alessandra, Francesca and Melanie<333 I've also made friends with this genius guy called Francesco... he reminds me of Jamie a whole LOT but he looks *nothing* like him.

I really like German. I find myself constantly speaking it with my friends and family... I am also happy that I can turn on the TV or watch German vids and understand most of what peeps are saying... I can't talk as fast as they can of course... yet ;)

From what I have wrote so far, school seems like fun and games. My Easter holidays started *today* and I have never waited so long for holidays before. There have been so many exams and I have been under stress and most of it pays off. I *still* get really anxious and everybody notices it. You know those peeps that get REALLY worried before tests are given back and then they get an A and they look like total asses? Yeah, that's me, except everybody finds it funny. I really can't help feeling so insecure all the time, I really lack self-worth (or whatevs you call it, lol) but my friends accept that and because of them I can carry on.

I'm not as shy as I used to be... I mean, in Taiwan I wasn't really that shy. I was INSANE. Then when I came back here and the culture-shock changed me completely and I turned me into this introvert, mute child and I still haven't recovered yet. Nowadays I fight with a lot of people and I say things to people *faces* rather than just hide behind a computer screen or get friends to tell others to tell others again ecc. ecc.

I get my occasional panic attacks the night before exams, I walk around in my room feeling helpless and unprepared. I feel time inching closer to the exam and it destroys me. I only calm down once the exam has been given and I skim through it.

To sum it all up, I'm going through a really tough time but at the same time I'm changing in a positive way. I've got crushes all over the place and they are really distracting (<3). I've learned that by changing the way you see things, things actually do change =)

Hope you liked my post and I'm sorry for not keeping in touch but "school is hard and keeps me busy".... I know, I know... but it's true =D. Have a great day!

Gianlu <33

  

I promised that I would update before Christmas! Do you know how many times I wanted to write on here but then lost all inspiration and just walked away? Not this time.

I feel dreadful about not keeping in touch with all of my old friends. But I don’t need to explain myself, and neither do you, we both know school is liberty thief number one. *le sigh*

This is my final year at this maddening school (not even high school), then I am finally moving to a beautiful, classic high school. It’s pretty much decided that in Year 12 I am going to America to study for at least a whole year. When I got told by my career advisor that it was possible that I would become an exchange student, I could’ve literally screamed with joy, but then he wouldn’t have thought too highly of me so…

In less exciting news:

I am doing much better in Italian. In the middle of a lesson my teacher said that five students, including me, are the only ones that shouldn’t worry about the minimum grade to get into high school. That made my day and the boost that comment gave me is still going.

German is my worst subject at the moment. I keep getting ‘satisfactory’ on my assessments. I don’t know why! It’s extremely frustrating, because I do study my head off, and then I find myself in front of completely unexpected questions.

But the fact that I have the highest overall grade in mathematics pretty much makes up for it. Woot!

We recently put up the Christmas tree and this year I got to choose its style. Multicolor (it’s actually mainly red, green and silver)! We are supposed to be putting the lights up today as well.

For those who are still reading… I am getting lots of Christmas cards from friends, and I never felt happier about receiving unexpected gifts!

What else is there to talk about except the usual “I miss Taiwan” lament?

There’s this friend of mine who really thinks she knows me more than she actually does! Our friendship mainly consists of continually making fun of each other and occasionally swearing… all in good fun. But then she starts lecturing me how I take friendship for granted and all that.  What the fuck! I got so pissed of I basically crushed her with all the negativity I could muster… and felt bad later. All is good now though *smiles*

Only 2 more days until my 2 week freedom!

Gah… I don’t know what to write anymore. More later.

Well, in this post I won’t be talking much about what I did today, since it’s basically rained all the time (which I love though!) and I had my eyes glued to this computer screen for most of the afternoon.

Tomorrow is my brother’s birthday and since he is such a little pest I won’t wish him anything and will probably to so in a forced manner when it comes to it but to celebrate we are going bowling with his godfather.

His godfather is buying us birthday presents (he didn’t make it to my birthday this year since he was working in London) and he is getting us ‘Magic: The Gathering’ game cards. They are sort of like Yu-Gi-Oh (or however you spell it) only much better…

I don’t know if I get lucky with bowling or something but I always come first or second. I like it when I do a strike and then I do Turkey (three strikes in one go). I can’t wait to crush my brother on his birthday… okay so that was totally Slytherin and evil of me but you get the picture.

What’s this song you are hearing? Yes, none other than Stars Are Blind by Paris Hilton, the Barbie that looks like her nose was melted in a car accident and surgical doctors fixed it up bluntly. So the voice is totally synthesized and artificial but the rhythm and all is good (as long as you don’t pay attention to what she is actually saying)

G’nite all!